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this room overlooks a city that i do not understand when usually i am overlooking cities that do not understand me. i don’t have any "start over" left inside of me. i wish anyone would understand. all roads lead to longing. the neon signs never turn off here. there are oceans inside of me. i only want comfort where there is none. i have never been so wrong about anyone ever. for the record, i am as sorry as i have ever been. my mind changes so much i make stock markets look normal. there are words that can be strung together and repeated in my ear in a particular order that will unlock the codes of my heart. i sit and wait on them.