i can give/take all of your problems back/away.

i saw this movie "the science of sleep" tonight.
it made my head swirl.
love and dreams.
i recommend watching it if you get a chance.
the days are starting to end early here now.
photos approved for (mis)use.
songs are just artifacts from a time when i still cared.
now there are country codes to decipher.
returning can take you to pieces.
but home is an idea, not a place.
i always tried to cross the river in oregon trail and it was always a bit too deep for my wagon.
i want a guy that doesnt have time to think things through.
last night i counted numbers until my eyes were stitched shut with sleep.
whats the point of walking the plank on a sinking ship?

this year...

half i cant remember half i spent under something like house arrest...
:/

its funny how what we say changes when it comes to our actions.
actions speak louder than words.
90% of the time the things we do are completely diffrent from what we say..i believe that.
we can be fucking great and be cool as fuck and not be fucked up.
i beleive that.
we can be fast to say "fuck you" but quicker to say i love you.
i believe life can be like a fucked up plane crash killing all but you..raising the same question popping in your head
would you ever fly again?
some tend to fall in holes and are strong enough to pull themselves out.
the weaker tend to crouch down and call the place home.

be the person to laugh at your situation and say yeah i've been there yeah i've done that but..would you do it again?

happy holidays.

right now

the small of my back where my in-ears were taped every night before
mind feels strangely empty.
the world feels unwelcome.
truth be told.
i fucking miss it.
lonely.

maybe this is just my subtle way of making you pay attention to someone else.

it makes me die (laughing) the way how much i look makes your insides tumble.

yesterday i found some old vampire teeth, so i put them on and looked at myself.
is it weird that that was the only time i thought i looked okay in the mirror?

dream fast. love hard.

i'll post again soon.